Letter to Undercover Lover

You are every couple’s nightmare, ang dahilan ng maraming hiwalayan, the embodiment of a snake. Ikaw yung sisira ng foundation ng kahit sinong marurupok. Anay ka girl?  As cliché as it may sound, you believe that your only fault is falling in love for someone who isn’t yours to keep. Alam mo naman kung ano ang tama sa mali, but you choose to stay. What people don’t know is you never really wanted to be a part of it. ‘Yong totoo, ginusto mo rin naman. Wag kami!

You remind yourself everyday that you are also a victim. You have invested your time, reputation, and most especially your pride. Minsan gusto mo ring kumawala, but you believe in love. All is fair in love and war, right? Kaya sugod lang nang sugod!

Para sayo, mali man pero at least totoo. You ask yourself if love is enough to make things right or does love have the capability to correct itself? You believe that yours is just another case of “right love at the wrong time”. You never really have the heart to digest that there is no right or wrong timing. There is only a “wrong person” pretending to be the right one at your most vulnerable time. Tao ka lang, hindi ka santo.

There are 3 possible outcomes in that kind of relationship kung ipipilit mo ‘yang pakikihati mo.

First, if you win. Ikaw ang pinili, hindi ka na thank you girl lang. The person chooses you and you both will live happily ever after…

Yes, people can change, and they change for the people they want to change for, and that’s a fact. But, so is the saying that “once a cheater, always a cheater” kaya isip-isip rin.

If the person cheats with you, ask yourself, do you honestly believe the same person won’t cheat on you?

Second is if you settle for less or to be more accurate, if you settle for half. You accept the part where he somehow fills the void even if he is not yours completely. Maniniwala ka sa mga pangako na he would choose you. You’ll patiently hide in his shadow, wanting to be seen and waiting to be announced. Most of the time, this is never the case. Hopia ka girl?

Ok lang naman maghold, pero masyado nang matagal at walang nang sapat na dahilan.”

Third is when you realize that you deserve more, and that love should not be kept in the dark. Mas magiging matatag ka, malakas at may paninindigan. You will finally have the courage to walk away from something na alam mong hindi naman talaga naging sa’yo sa umpisa pa lang, because if it is, then you should have been the first, the only one. Ang bukod pala sa lahat. Walang iba, ikaw lang sapat na.

“Nangyari na. And all we can do is to accept the fact na kahit gaano kalakas ang tama natin sa isa’t-isa, hindi sapat ‘yon para itama ang sa umpisa pa lang ay mali na.” So which outcome will you choose? Anong pipiliin mo? Saan ka lulugar? 

Love is inspite of and despite. It should not be wrong. If it is, then it is not love. If it is not love, it is such a waste. Dropt it. Wag masanay sa tira-tira, sa mga bagay na pinaghahatian. Magdamot ka rin minsan. Wag kang masanay sa hindi buo.

Paano darating yung magmamahal sa’yo ng buo kung nasanay ka na sa kulang? Kung nagtyatyaga ka sa kung ano lang ang kayang ibigay sa’yo. Bigyan mo ng chance ang ibang tao na mahalin ka ng buo.

Hold your ground, Fight for what is right and not for what feels right. Tell yourself that you are the right one. Kung hindi ka nya piliin. PILIIN MO ANG SARILI MO. Kumawala ka at itama mo ang mali. CHOOSE YOU!